I closed my eyes to pray and meditate in order to find peace in my mind.  I had many concerns about not obeying Jesus and not completing the tasks he asked me to do.  For some reason in my mind I started to recite part of Psalm 23 that says, “…He leads me beside quiet waters…”

I saw Jesus sitting on a chair floating in the air.  He was wearing a purple heart shaped pendant hanging from a long chain around his neck.  I saw the same image during a previous meditation.  It was when Jesus asked me to do a task, and he warned me to make sure that I went to that place he asked me to go to with a contrite heart.

I saw Jesus sitting, and looking in another direction.  Because he was silent, I started saying a phrase that brings peace to my heart.  I said, “I’m peace.  I’m love.  I’m light,” but even before I said, “I’m light,’ Jesus added, “You are a fountain of light.”

Then, I saw images in the air.  I saw a crown or a part of a crown.  I also saw a crown of thorns like the one that Jesus wore on the cross.

I kept praying and asking the Lord for clarity and strength.  I also asked why so many challenges and changes are required for me.  What about other people?  Don’t they need to change too?  Then Jesus stood up and opened his arms.

  With a smile he changed into a swallowtail butterfly.  It was the same butterfly he showed me during other meditations.  This is also the same type of butterfly that followed me while I was walking in the forest on a weekend.  Then he said, “Because it is you who is under  transformation.”

At that moment I felt doubt in my heart, because I didn’t deserve to feel so much love and see Jesus.  Was that even possible?  So I started to recite Psalm 91 for protection.  I knelt down and covered my face with my hands.  I felt like a warm blanket was placed around me, and an immense peace filled my heart.  In the same moment, I knew it was Jesus and I felt ashamed because I doubted.  I uncovered my eyes and turned to see Jesus with a huge wing hugging my whole body.  I said thank you, and I left the meditation.